sometimes - always - i wonder what i believe. faith in something bigger was not a choice in my younger years - is it now?
i want it to be.
the 'some' gets longer and longer.
is it time to leave the word christian behind?
the bullshit that surrounds this must be separated from.
i've been trying redefine this word for long times.
maybe now i need to cut it off.
and with disdain look at the pieces.
but i have never been able to do anything black.
what do i do with the ropes that have tied me to all this?
the small fragile threads still exist in me
- yet -
they are not as easy to break as i might like.